Tonight was a good night. Sometimes I spend so much time thinking about how people let me down, that I don't realize I need people. I need their laughter, I need their voices, I need their ears and mouths and eyes, I need them. In terms of the average person my age, I'd say I'm odd in the sense that I'm a bit of a "Societal Camel". I can hang out with people once every couple of weeks and be good for another couple of weeks. So now we start the weeks. It's strange that 9/10 I would rather be wit Jasmin. I heard some celebrity or another...I just remembered haha it was Paris Hilton, but she said something that I thought rang true, it was something more or less like:
"When I was single I was going out a lot, I was partying a lot because I was searching for someone or something. Now that I have someone, I'm not searching anymore, I have found what I was looking for and I don't need to go out to look anymore."
I think I might have worded it better, but it's along the same lines of what she was trying to say. I never partied a lot, but I went out a lot, and I think it was because I was constantly trying to find that thing that would make me happy, constantly trying to find that mixture that where I could just say:
"Hey, this makes me happy every time, when I'm feeling down, I'll do this thing."
And now that I'm with Jasmin I don't feel the need to search anymore because it seems like I have found it. It's like everyone else is doing the same thing every night because it makes them happy, or so it seems it does. But very few of them could just stay home and enjoy themselves or the company they're with. Most of the conversations involve "Let's call so and so." or "What's going on tonight?" and that's not to say we don't suffer the same boredom's that everyone else does, it's just to me, we have one another, and that always will win out against beer pong, The Cool Kids, and yes, even Tom Waits.
I was going somewhere else with this, but now I forget. Oh yes! I had a conversation with Isaac's brother tonight, Shawn I believe?, and it was vaguely about religion and the positive aspects it provides one with. It wasn't about religion per se, but more so how if you completely close yourself off to things you can take from it,then you close your mind off to a bunch of different ideas and knowledge. Whether you are whatever trendy non-christian religion of the week you are, there is still a vast amount you can take from any religion, be it Christianity, Buddhism, Islam, Hinduism, or whatever, they all preach basic forms of respect, kindness, and love for people. It's not even so much as the basic principles, so much as the way it's written. I have read the bible, I have read many parts of the Qu'uran and each are so eloquently worded that I can't help but feel. Just feel you know? It's strange to read something from so long ago put into a way that makes you think "Yes! That is exactly what I was thinking!" Where you hear something or read something and it strikes something inside of you that just makes you feeeeeeel. It was a really good conversation and it made me feel good to discuss something (again) with someone who was willing to discuss and not just persuade. I love.
Good night.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
Planes! Planes! Planes!
If I don't do what I can to please
It's been keeping me chained
Right below my knees
And it doesn't want to see me leave.
I've traveled by buses and trains
I've made it hundreds of miles away,
But when I got my bones down to San Antone
I could hear it calling saying:
"Come on home."
And I'd aim for that windy city,
If the breeze were a little bit stronger
Or maybe blaze a trail down to Oregon
If it'd mean I'd never be back again.
Planes! Planes! Planes!
As far as I can see!
These bustling streets,
Forty hours a week,
I was promised more,
Lord, this ain't for me!
I'm tired of being worked
Down to the bone
I'm don't want to tell folks
This is my home
I don't want to be working
Just to survive
It keeps going this way
I wont see twenty five!
Forget Truth, It Lacks Lyricism
I am strange. I have been exhausted all day, I felt like just laying down on the dirty floor at work today and sleeping.
"Uggghhhh, just walk around me, I'm sleepy."
That's what I would tell everyone.
So last night I went to this pub in Mockingbird Station with Jake, and I forget that I enjoy his company quite a bit. The first couple of minutes with us are always a bit awkward, mainly because it seems like he must impress me with lucrative stories about his adventurous life. So I will quietly sit there with the occasional:
"Ha, that's crazy."
"God, what a dumbass."
"What? Weird."
Then we get into the swing of things and everything goes how I would like it to go. It's strange because him and I drift back and forth with our friendship and every time it happens him and I seem to change, but only a couple of degrees. At the core, our friendship still remains what it is, but something is always a bit different. We experience life on two opposite spectrum's, so we end up having disagreements from time to time, but that's all they are, and that's something I don't mind. It's nice to have two people who cannot agree on something, but still be able to convey their ideas knowing that the other is gaining some perspective. Rather than forcing our opinions down one another(s) throat, we can generally find a mutual meeting point and continue on with the discussion. I've gotten so used to the "I'm right-You're wrong" argument lately, it seems that it's all that is happening now a days. It's boring, exhausting, and neither person comes away with an understanding of the other persons situation.
One thing Jake and I discussed was the classification of music. I hate the classification of music, I think it's pretentious and limiting and elitist. There the four categories of music: Country, Rock,
Blues, and Jazz. That is it, that is all. If you come up to me and list me a bunch of different genres for a band, I will break your nose. When you label music and put it into genres so technical, you are limiting art. When artist, whether they be painters, musicians, sculptors, or trapeze artists, these people are expressing themselves the way it works for them. What is coming out of them, their music, their statues, their paintings, their...somersaults? That is emotion pouring out through action, sound, and words. Art is the personification of emotions, it is limitless and beautiful, and here we sit categorizing every emotion that comes out of them.
Punk Rock
Hardcore
Post Hardcore
Screamo
Goth
Death Metal
Prog Metal
Thrash Metal
Nu-Metal
Rap-Metal
Crust
Avaunt Gard
Noise Rock
Indi Rock
Hip Hop
Rap
Pop
Power Pop
Synth Pop
And that's just the popular ones, it gets so much more in depth, and whether or not you like those genres of music or like any artists from those genres, you limit it. You put sounds glorious sounds into a box and confine it, so that you and only you are able to discuss it with your friends. If you like art, if you like music, you should understand what I'm saying, and I'm sure there is a counter argument to mine, but I'm sticking with mine. Stop limiting art. Do you think The Clash, Bob Dylan, and The Beatles sat around and said things like:
"Hey, that's really good, but it doesn't really fit the kind of sound we have already been working with."
No, the bands that has the most influence were those that did not confine themselves to having one particular sound, they did not scrap stuff that was out of their box. When you label music, you set limits as to what your able to achieve, what you're going to allow yourself to listen to and experience. People who say "Oh I never get into a *genre* phase." it's not a phase, if you love music, you experience it, you open your pores and wait for it to seep in. Every time that musical pipe is passed around you take another hit of it, because you know what, it gets better the more and more you do. There are songs that I don't really find that amazing, but there will be one part that just stands out, even if it's a two second part where a clap comes in, or a guitar makes a weird noise, or the singers voice does something strange, but I will listen to the whole song for that one part, and I'm always happy I did.
"Uggghhhh, just walk around me, I'm sleepy."
That's what I would tell everyone.
So last night I went to this pub in Mockingbird Station with Jake, and I forget that I enjoy his company quite a bit. The first couple of minutes with us are always a bit awkward, mainly because it seems like he must impress me with lucrative stories about his adventurous life. So I will quietly sit there with the occasional:
"Ha, that's crazy."
"God, what a dumbass."
"What? Weird."
Then we get into the swing of things and everything goes how I would like it to go. It's strange because him and I drift back and forth with our friendship and every time it happens him and I seem to change, but only a couple of degrees. At the core, our friendship still remains what it is, but something is always a bit different. We experience life on two opposite spectrum's, so we end up having disagreements from time to time, but that's all they are, and that's something I don't mind. It's nice to have two people who cannot agree on something, but still be able to convey their ideas knowing that the other is gaining some perspective. Rather than forcing our opinions down one another(s) throat, we can generally find a mutual meeting point and continue on with the discussion. I've gotten so used to the "I'm right-You're wrong" argument lately, it seems that it's all that is happening now a days. It's boring, exhausting, and neither person comes away with an understanding of the other persons situation.
One thing Jake and I discussed was the classification of music. I hate the classification of music, I think it's pretentious and limiting and elitist. There the four categories of music: Country, Rock,
Blues, and Jazz. That is it, that is all. If you come up to me and list me a bunch of different genres for a band, I will break your nose. When you label music and put it into genres so technical, you are limiting art. When artist, whether they be painters, musicians, sculptors, or trapeze artists, these people are expressing themselves the way it works for them. What is coming out of them, their music, their statues, their paintings, their...somersaults? That is emotion pouring out through action, sound, and words. Art is the personification of emotions, it is limitless and beautiful, and here we sit categorizing every emotion that comes out of them.
Punk Rock
Hardcore
Post Hardcore
Screamo
Goth
Death Metal
Prog Metal
Thrash Metal
Nu-Metal
Rap-Metal
Crust
Avaunt Gard
Noise Rock
Indi Rock
Hip Hop
Rap
Pop
Power Pop
Synth Pop
And that's just the popular ones, it gets so much more in depth, and whether or not you like those genres of music or like any artists from those genres, you limit it. You put sounds glorious sounds into a box and confine it, so that you and only you are able to discuss it with your friends. If you like art, if you like music, you should understand what I'm saying, and I'm sure there is a counter argument to mine, but I'm sticking with mine. Stop limiting art. Do you think The Clash, Bob Dylan, and The Beatles sat around and said things like:
"Hey, that's really good, but it doesn't really fit the kind of sound we have already been working with."
No, the bands that has the most influence were those that did not confine themselves to having one particular sound, they did not scrap stuff that was out of their box. When you label music, you set limits as to what your able to achieve, what you're going to allow yourself to listen to and experience. People who say "Oh I never get into a *genre* phase." it's not a phase, if you love music, you experience it, you open your pores and wait for it to seep in. Every time that musical pipe is passed around you take another hit of it, because you know what, it gets better the more and more you do. There are songs that I don't really find that amazing, but there will be one part that just stands out, even if it's a two second part where a clap comes in, or a guitar makes a weird noise, or the singers voice does something strange, but I will listen to the whole song for that one part, and I'm always happy I did.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
It amazes me how the same "Disease" can effect people in completely different ways, Not so much amazes, as much as baffles. It seems like there's a bug going around causing everyone to re-examine their lives, myself included, but at the end of the day we're all still at the same point we were before we started this self-inventory and we're no closer to finding a solution. What's worse is the ups and downs, I often wonder if I'm manic depressive, because the change in attitude is so abrupt I myself am even surprised when it strikes. Things...they just pile up, life is built out of not only financial debt, but what seems like emotional as well. I can take the time to try and get over one situation, only to find that I owe some other emotions to another sector of my life that I had either forgotten about or had just chose to repay at a later time. I'm glad there is no Contentment Collectors because if there were, I would definitely be receiving numerous calls from "Unknown". The way this emotional debt keeps stacking up, the more of a hole I feel like I'm being put in, it's as if I get out of one of them and as I'm standing someone tells me "Hey, we appreciate you dealing with that situation, but there's also this other thing you need to take care of." Then I'm pushed in deeper.
One thing that's annoying me is all the political debates going on everywhere. Radio. Work. Parties. Television. People act as if Obama is going to change the whole world, that in 4-8 years he is magically going to correct 50 years of economical damage and strain that middle class has been enduring. Do you realize we're middle class? Some of us would be even lower than that if we did not still live with our parents. I know if I lived on my own right now I would be on food stamps. It's not to say that because we're middle class we're not knowledgeable about issues, because I think this generation or at least people I know, are very aware of what's happening, but still how can you believe one man is going to revolutionize a system that has been in play for hundreds of years? I'm a pessimist in terms of societal change, I believe people can make the change, but we're all sitting and waiting for someone to make the first step. We're not leaders, we're hopefuls just waiting for the right person to say the right thing so we can all of a sudden grow backbones and say "Man, I've been saying we should do that for years!" Oh yeah? What steps have you taken to ensure this decision would be made? I mean the whole elective process is prime example of it, we find two candidates, listen to them talk for a couple of months, then decide which one of them gets the chance to be a revolutionary. Our whole society casts their votes on someone else to make situations better instead of doing it ourselves. There are plenty of people who are out trying to make a differences, I'm aware of this, but as a whole, our society cannot agree on ANY one cause to fix.
Global Warming-Doesn't exist
Dar fur-Doesn't effect us
Stock Market-I don't have stocks
Gas Prices-Oh well, they'll go up anyways
Abortion-Up to you
Taxes-"The only constants are death and taxes"
Depression? Recession? Oppression?
Anyone up for some PROGRESSION?
Guess we'll just have to see.
One thing that's annoying me is all the political debates going on everywhere. Radio. Work. Parties. Television. People act as if Obama is going to change the whole world, that in 4-8 years he is magically going to correct 50 years of economical damage and strain that middle class has been enduring. Do you realize we're middle class? Some of us would be even lower than that if we did not still live with our parents. I know if I lived on my own right now I would be on food stamps. It's not to say that because we're middle class we're not knowledgeable about issues, because I think this generation or at least people I know, are very aware of what's happening, but still how can you believe one man is going to revolutionize a system that has been in play for hundreds of years? I'm a pessimist in terms of societal change, I believe people can make the change, but we're all sitting and waiting for someone to make the first step. We're not leaders, we're hopefuls just waiting for the right person to say the right thing so we can all of a sudden grow backbones and say "Man, I've been saying we should do that for years!" Oh yeah? What steps have you taken to ensure this decision would be made? I mean the whole elective process is prime example of it, we find two candidates, listen to them talk for a couple of months, then decide which one of them gets the chance to be a revolutionary. Our whole society casts their votes on someone else to make situations better instead of doing it ourselves. There are plenty of people who are out trying to make a differences, I'm aware of this, but as a whole, our society cannot agree on ANY one cause to fix.
Global Warming-Doesn't exist
Dar fur-Doesn't effect us
Stock Market-I don't have stocks
Gas Prices-Oh well, they'll go up anyways
Abortion-Up to you
Taxes-"The only constants are death and taxes"
Depression? Recession? Oppression?
Anyone up for some PROGRESSION?
Guess we'll just have to see.
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