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Tonight was a good night. Sometimes I spend so much time thinking about how people let me down, that I don't realize I need people. I need their laughter, I need their voices, I need their ears and mouths and eyes, I need them. In terms of the average person my age, I'd say I'm odd in the sense that I'm a bit of a "Societal Camel". I can hang out with people once every couple of weeks and be good for another couple of weeks. So now we start the weeks. It's strange that 9/10 I would rather be wit Jasmin. I heard some celebrity or another...I just remembered haha it was Paris Hilton, but she said something that I thought rang true, it was something more or less like:

"When I was single I was going out a lot, I was partying a lot because I was searching for someone or something. Now that I have someone, I'm not searching anymore, I have found what I was looking for and I don't need to go out to look anymore."

I think I might have worded it better, but it's along the same lines of what she was trying to say. I never partied a lot, but I went out a lot, and I think it was because I was constantly trying to find that thing that would make me happy, constantly trying to find that mixture that where I could just say:
"Hey, this makes me happy every time, when I'm feeling down, I'll do this thing."

And now that I'm with Jasmin I don't feel the need to search anymore because it seems like I have found it. It's like everyone else is doing the same thing every night because it makes them happy, or so it seems it does. But very few of them could just stay home and enjoy themselves or the company they're with. Most of the conversations involve "Let's call so and so." or "What's going on tonight?" and that's not to say we don't suffer the same boredom's that everyone else does, it's just to me, we have one another, and that always will win out against beer pong, The Cool Kids, and yes, even Tom Waits.

I was going somewhere else with this, but now I forget. Oh yes! I had a conversation with Isaac's brother tonight, Shawn I believe?, and it was vaguely about religion and the positive aspects it provides one with. It wasn't about religion per se, but more so how if you completely close yourself off to things you can take from it,then you close your mind off to a bunch of different ideas and knowledge. Whether you are whatever trendy non-christian religion of the week you are, there is still a vast amount you can take from any religion, be it Christianity, Buddhism, Islam, Hinduism, or whatever, they all preach basic forms of respect, kindness, and love for people. It's not even so much as the basic principles, so much as the way it's written. I have read the bible, I have read many parts of the Qu'uran and each are so eloquently worded that I can't help but feel. Just feel you know? It's strange to read something from so long ago put into a way that makes you think "Yes! That is exactly what I was thinking!" Where you hear something or read something and it strikes something inside of you that just makes you feeeeeeel. It was a really good conversation and it made me feel good to discuss something (again) with someone who was willing to discuss and not just persuade. I love.
Good night.